Forever Wanting to be a Character

I think we all connect with characters and have favourite ones mainly because we want to be them. As a child, it didn't matter what TV show or film you were obsessed with, you would often pretend to be a character. For me, I was obsessed with The Lion King and always felt the need to dress up and pretend to be Simba and make lion noises (I am still proud of those amazing noises to this day). But the reason I loved Simba so much was simply because I connected with him.

Don't get me wrong, my king-father wasn't murdered by my evil uncle and I didn't run away - it's just because I wanted to matter, and I suppose I still do. I didn't want power, I just wanted to matter to some people - lonely children don't get that luxury.  

However as we grow older, we don't become obsessed and dress up, we tend to just fall in love  or connect with them. For me, growing up in high school for the first few years was a bit of an odd one. I didn't really matter but people had started to get to know me in my last two or three years. 

Then one day I watched Fight Club... I couldn't even comprehend that film. But Tyler Durden, he for some reason amazed me. The way he accepted that he just is and that we all just are. That's what I really needed: acceptance of myself and others (my acceptance may not have worked 100% until recently...). To this day I still find my self talking for my body parts, just like him:

'I am Sam's bladder who just decided to fill up and piss him off.'

Sometimes I think of characters like The Doctor and how amazingly cool and nice he is and how he can protect people without using violence, how he really matters to people and doesn't notice it. That's one reason people relate to him, we all matter to plenty of people but none of us realises just how much.

A character is essentially a concept. And like every other concept, if it sounds quite good then you will most likely love it. Favouring a character is normal. I suppose we love them because we either relate to them or want to be like them. 

With me loving Simba, I wanted to matter just like him. With Tyler, I looked up to his acceptance of life. 

Character's are amazing.

It's really beautiful when you think about it.

I am Sam's last sentence.